For the sake of order (a quality which I often lack), I will provide a list of topics at the beginning of this entry. It may not be necessary, but at least, you will know which will interest you the most and it may even help to assist you in deciphering the information as you read.
- Applied Behavior Analysis – A field in psychology in which behavior is understood as resulting from various causes and will always have an effect, similar to the laws of physics having predictable outcomes (although most people do not regard human behavior quite this precisely, there are noticeable patterns which may be observed and measured)
- Open Adoption – The result of the hearing was termination of parental rights with a recommendation for continued contact between our son and ourselves.
- Newsletter Editing – I am coagulating the information that has been submitted to me by members of our mental health community in my county. It is a big job as I am finding out.
- Ideas for New Writing Projects – I have various ideas for other children’s books: one is about turtles, another is a longer nonfiction account of my experiences. I am playing with ideas. The children’s book is more tangible of an idea for me. I am also just slowly beginning to market my book. I need to email someone at a local art gallery/used book shop.
That’s pretty much it. My husband is over for the weekend. I’m trying to learn to be a better cook. I went to see the adoption social worker. I need to get in touch with a program called Kinship Center (link is on the front page, sorry for not linking here, lazy). They have a support group for people who have given up a child to be adopted. It would help me probably to talk to others. I don’t want to get overly involved since there’s a lot I’m actually doing right now.
The Applied Behavior Analysis is something I’ve considered in the past. Someone mentioned it to me by way of a college recruiter. I don’t know if I messed up by asking them to call another time or send an email. I hope that is not too much of a problem. I think it would be a good fit since that is what I do much of the time anyway.
Open adoption; I will not mess that up. The family is very kind. I hope I can support my husband to become more comfortable with them. I don’t know how to do so in an effective and gentle way.
About the newsletter, I’m just in the assembling process. It’s my first time working with Microsoft Publisher very much. I may have used it for other projects, but maybe it was a long while ago. I don’t know.
My writing ideas…. I have to get them down. Maybe I will post my story that I told aloud to my husband today while at the bus stop. It involved a turtle and he sees a rock. The rock is not what it appears to be. It’s a story for children, but I feel adults would enjoy it too.
I get to see my son along with my mother on the 27th. I’m going to try to see what I can do about what’s happening with my husband and his contact with David, but I don’t know if it’s my problem. I do feel it’s in David’s best interest to know his birth father. I don’t want him to completely shun him. So far, he seems to be distancing himself.