Just as I was reading another blog here on WordPress (not surprisingly, a blog where people are following it and commenting, unlike my own: Comment, please!), Chris was in my living room watching a movie and he calls across the apartment saying, “You don’t love me, do you?” He was saying this yesterday, too, as we went to bed. He was being a sulky brat, in my opinion. He doesn’t need to do that. It’s confusing.
It’s confusing because at one minute he says he is moving on, the next he says he wants to be friends, yet another time he’ll say he wants to try to work on the relationship and another time yet again he asks whether we should work on divorce papers ourselves. It’s like he’s sending mixed messages, which he doesn’t even own up to doing.
Chris and I have different ideas about relationships, and I don’t know why that is. He says he doesn’t agree that relationships/marriage is work. He thinks work is painful. Should I take it that he doesn’t take the relationships seriously, then? He doesn’t take communication seriously, either, in the relationship. Should I take it that it’s not possible to have a marriage with someone who doesn’t understand what is important to me in one? Maybe he’s not cut out to be married. Maybe I’m asking too much. Maybe I’m being a pushover trying again.