I don’t really like that title, but I could think of none better.
Sometimes the old adage goes, “One step forward and two steps back.” Sometimes not.
Last Friday, I lost my personal items on the bus. I may have posted about this or I may not. Either way, I lost the following in my purse which was beautiful and had a nice rainbow glitter design on the front with a zipper and was the kind that could be worn cross body style because it had a nice long strap. It was dark blue, and I think I bought it while I was in my undergraduate years. I lost the following: One pink small-size eco-friendly moleskin (certain type of journal/writing book) made with 100% post-consumer materials — this said it would be recoverable only I didn’t have the foresight to actually register it at the website like they suggested, one wallet with two debit/credit cards (credit union and major bank), two or three checkbooks, a bunch of receipts, some cash, my set of keys (with apartment keys & mailbox keys), random lip balms, maybe some lotion, and I’m sure other stuff I’m not thinking about.
This week has been partially about backtracking. My credit union knows me even though I only just started with them this year. They were kind enough to allow me to withdraw cash although I do not have my ID (oh, yes, that must be one of the things I forgot to list!). I had to get back to spare key I had given my husband to get in on his own. He no longer can do so. I’m waiting for my friend who works with the management of my apartment complex to call today so that I can get into my mailbox and get my mail to include my beginning-of-the-month check that I receive from a certain fund. I will go over and remind her gently after lunch. I may just hang out with her in the office for a while. I’ve called the post office at both the distribution center and the regular post office where I would receive the keys. I left a message, but I will have to call again after lunch as well. I’ll hope I can go on Monday. I’ve been so busy lately running around to other parts of town to visit my son on Tuesday, before that visit my husband, also go to see an Episcopal-Lutheran priest yesterday with him (although I am of neither denomination; I am Unitarian Universalist). I haven’t even had time to go and volunteer this week.
I’m supposed to make a list of activities that I will be doing with the peer center in Monterey called Our Voices. It’s another center run by peers mainly in Interim, Inc. The link to that organization is provided, of course. I haven’t done this yet, but I will today.
The other thing I did (bigger) is that I contacted Monterey Institute of International Studies online this morning and requested information about their program where a person can get a Bachelor of Arts in International Policy and a Master of Arts in another field within three years total (for both programs). I decided I would find out about various language programs. I’m interested probably in the Translation and Interpretation program although I started out looking into the programs where one would teach a foreign language or maybe English as a Second Language. The admissions person said they would have a particular person talk to me about that all next week, someone who advises based on all the language-oriented programs. This venture is really exciting to me because up until now, I was looking and looking and never had found a calling. I’m approaching a resolution to the search that I’ve been having for about two years. I will be proud to be on a road.
My husband and I talk of moving to Monterey or Marina, which is closer to the Peninsula where I live. I’m in a more landlocked part of our area. It’s somewhat safer on the peninsula and more pleasant overall. The atmosphere is different, and it could be much more comfortable.
We’re going to be attending this Episcopal-Lutheran church every other week. Christopher did not like the idea of every week. I guess he feels he needs some Sundays to stay at home or relax. I recommended that we could still be in touch with the reverend regardless.
I would love to live in the part of Monterey near the Monterey Institute of International Studies (MIIS). It’s the downtown area where there is close access to all kinds of shops, activities, some friends who live near there, and there is Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods both close by. Plus, this would be closer to both of our respective mothers. It would make life much simpler and more peaceful, I believe.
Christopher has started to volunteer with a non-profit organization called Loaves, Fishes, and Computers. Their mission primarily is to sell refurbished computer systems at a very low cost to create a greater access to these resources. It’s great experience, and I’m impressed with him for doing this because he has never really volunteered before. He has always wanted to get into a job with computers (currently is a landscaper for Interim, but he wants to expand away from this to his greater interest in computers and technology). He does not have formal training but is very knowledgeable with figuring things out and is very personable when he is relaxed. When he’s experiencing anxiety, he can be contentious, but more of the time he is fine.
I see if we take things easy, allow the time of transition to pass and look forward to the days when, as the priest says, our son can make a choice about having a relationship with us in future years, focus on the present without looking backward to create depression or too much into the future to create anxiety…. If this all can be achieved, then we will be on a healing and wonderful path. This is my goal, my prayer, and it is my wish.